Gifts from Beyond
by
Roberta Simpson Brown
With Christmas gifts still on my mind and with the gift of a whole new year stretching ahead, I always ask myself in January what has really meant the most in my life. When I was younger, I looked for answers in large things—big presents, big events, etc. I soon realized these were not the most meaningful. The greatest gifts were the small ones that let me know that life is eternal. One such gift came from my older sister, Fatima, who moved on in 2007.
Fatima loved holidays and always tried to get each person on her list a unique gift. Late in her life, while she was suffering from a stroke and heart problem, she had my nephew’s girlfriend purchase a Rooster Cookie Jar for me. The girlfriend was reluctant to do this because she knew I had no great love for roosters. Mom had a couple of roosters that used to fight me when I was a child. I’d run to Fatima yelling with my childish lisp, “Thister! Thister! Help! The old rooster’s after me!” She would come to my aid!
Through the years, that became a joke between us. When one of us would have a problem, we’d call the other and say, “Thister! The Old Rooster’s after me!” And the other would help solve the problem. The rooster cookie jar was a wonderful gift that reminded me of that.

Fatima was bedridden from the stroke for three long years. I helped all I could, but her condition eventually required treatment we could not give at home. She had to be placed in a nursing home where she hoped she’d never be. The Old Rooster was there indeed, and I had failed to help her. I felt very burdened by that failure.
Fatima’s last day on earth was February 1, 2007. Christmas of 2007 was the first Christmas in my entire life that we spent apart. I hoped she would appear in some ghostly form, but she didn’t. I felt she was near, but there was no visible sign.
Then late on Christmas night, I was thinking of a long poem Fatima had helped me learn for a school program when I was in the second grade. We had lost our copy, and had been unable to find another even on the Internet. The teacher had not given us the author’s name or the book it came from, so we finally gave up looking. Suddenly Fatima’s face flashed vividly into my mind. Go to the computer and type in the title of the poem. She didn’t say the words aloud, but that was the message she sent. I had done that before without success, but I decided to try one more time. As soon as I typed in the title, the entire poem came up on the screen! Someone who had a blog for home schooling had just posted it, and he wrote that he had no idea why!
I printed out the poem and all the information about it, and Fatima’s face flashed in my mind again. She sent me another mental message:
Stop worrying! It’s okay! My stroke was one Old Rooster too big for you to fight! Think about the good things and move on!
My burden immediately lifted. Her understanding was a great gift, but I realized she had managed to give me a unique, tangible gift, too. In my hand was the printout of the poem we had loved and searched for together. I would never have looked for the poem if she had not directed me.
I truly believe she is often with me, and I am convinced that life, the greatest gift of all, is truly eternal.





